Am just exhausted today from being up til midnite listening to the fireworks/etc.I hope that the trip next week is a good one and I can treat it as just that, and not get wrapped around the fact that the move/McCarthy/Sacramento/etc did not come into focus. I guess I have to treat the California thing as a future goal or something or else it will just drive me crazy. I have enough trouble just dealing with how the last employment situation ended right where and when it did. Bad choosing on my part to stay and exhaust a bad situation. I guess success really might depend on keeping a more open mind about situations, and not passing judgement too soon. I either have to get past those issues of last year, or make a change to get past them. Have to get on with life in a positive manner, and not just drag my tired butt out of bed every day. How to find the motivation............hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....