i don't think that i have had this feeling of being this depressed for a long time. truly sometimes i wish that i/we had just moved last year, but is that just running away from my problem ? i seem to be really comfortable being in this little world of finding all the negatives about anything anywhere at any time. seems to be my way of dealing with anything. is hard to just act/be neutral let alone positive. i truly believe my only hope is to transfer and get out of this house/rain etc. i can tell you if/when the opportunity comes up in sacto/hmh i am going to seriously go after (could have last year too. ouch)physical symptoms of being this way all center around being constantly exhausted. mentally,physically, and emotionally.