I don't even know how to label this entry because there are so many things it could be like anger, frustration, sad, painful so I just chose one. I'm bugging out. I feel angry and depressed at the same time, like 5 minutes ago I kinda fell to the floor and screamed. My throat hurts now. I punched a few walls and I really wanna cut or something. I did one cut but I stopped and threw the knife back in the draw, disgusted with myself. Am I such a freak that I can't even be depressed the right way? That I can't harm myself the way I want to? I don't know how to let out this pent up shit and it is really starting to fucking annoy the bloody fuck out of me!