My teacher told me I should come onto this website so I'm gonna try it out. I guess I will just start writing what I am feeling at the moment. I can't stop my thoughts. Everytime I drive over a bridge I want it to collapse or if I am in a car I want it to get in an accedent or if I am walking I want to get hit by a car. These are some of my unconscious thoughts. I can't get them out of my head they just won't shut up! I don't know what to do. I also want to continuously hurt myself such as cutting or punching walls just to hurt my hand ect. Everyone says I don't smile anymore and that I've gona all quiet. Well I can't help it there is nothing to smile at anymore. I can't even fake it anymore.