Feeling down

I guess I have a short memory.  Fall is a hard time for me, perhaps because of the shorter days.  I woke up feeling really sad.  I forced myself to go for a walk but cried for most of it. Or perhaps it is because it is Thanksgiving (we celebrate earlier here in Canada)  and another celebratory time without Lisa. 
So in my usual self destructive way, my supper glass of red wine became a half a bottle.  It just sucks. 
It is precisely for this reason that I keep busy.  I had a 3 hour reprieve when I attended a budget committee meeting for the condo. 
We are going to visit our son for a couple of days on Friday.  Hopefully I will be in a better mood by then.
Thanks my SOTH for being there.
Lisa:  I can't believe how sad I am today.  I miss you always and love you forever.  Mummy