Haven't written in a while...theres been too much going on, so much shit. so so much shit. SO much shit I don't feel like talking about. But I felt I should record a few thoughts on here. I don't know. things have been so stressful and they are getting worse. I feel like I'm falling and I can't get up. Everytime we catch a break it snaps. Everytime I think things are getting better they arent. I hate getting up in the morning and I fanatsize about my death. I can't of course, I have too much responsibilty for that, but I do think about it alot. I just want things to be a little easier for once.