Brat
I dont care how imature or stupid this sounds but I am having a bad day....and this is why
1. The guy that I have a crush on (a contractor here at work) came in today. Last week I introduced myself to him and made small talk with him. I passed by him 3 times and nothing, not a look a glance, anything. I felt so shot down! Rejection (although its stupid because for all i know he may have a family or married, gf something, he may even be a jerk) got the best of me. I think i felt soooo sure that he would greet me at least but nope...Dumb but that set the tone for my whole day.
2. Had lunch for a coworker and I didnt really want to go. It was a group thing and it turned out okay but I just wasnt feeling it. My stomach was in knots.
3. Found out I am moving locations at work to another part of the building and have to share with another group!!! There area is in a better than where I am currently at, its not where all the public can see me, but still...I dont want to sit with these people who are probably nice.
4. My stbx text me, to pick up the divorce papers so he can get his friend to hurry up and finish them since I am dragging ass on it. This is the root of all my issues with everything else that is happening. I was hoping that this guy would be a distraction to reality. But, nope...not the plan.
I wish i was strong enough to not need a person to be a distraction.
I had a cry in the RR here at work. I sit in the smac front so I cant fall apart and be away. Anyway, i just need to face it. Not much else that can be done.
1. The guy that I have a crush on (a contractor here at work) came in today. Last week I introduced myself to him and made small talk with him. I passed by him 3 times and nothing, not a look a glance, anything. I felt so shot down! Rejection (although its stupid because for all i know he may have a family or married, gf something, he may even be a jerk) got the best of me. I think i felt soooo sure that he would greet me at least but nope...Dumb but that set the tone for my whole day.
2. Had lunch for a coworker and I didnt really want to go. It was a group thing and it turned out okay but I just wasnt feeling it. My stomach was in knots.
3. Found out I am moving locations at work to another part of the building and have to share with another group!!! There area is in a better than where I am currently at, its not where all the public can see me, but still...I dont want to sit with these people who are probably nice.
4. My stbx text me, to pick up the divorce papers so he can get his friend to hurry up and finish them since I am dragging ass on it. This is the root of all my issues with everything else that is happening. I was hoping that this guy would be a distraction to reality. But, nope...not the plan.
I wish i was strong enough to not need a person to be a distraction.
I had a cry in the RR here at work. I sit in the smac front so I cant fall apart and be away. Anyway, i just need to face it. Not much else that can be done.
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