Tuesday

School is keeping me too busy. thats a good thing. I do however find my self with resentment and anger towards others for no good reason. My husband went to visit his brother in Seattle and i was jealous about it... bitter too...i would pray and i would fall out of these feelings and never expressed it to him as i thought they were unnecessary and just showed that i was being selfish and crazy about it lol. I need a pattern to keep moving foward. School is good but i still need to incorporate fitness or soemthing. I entered an art contest here at home and i made it to the final, 6 pieces were picked out of 65 and mine was one! Tomorrow is the whole party for it. Im not excited as i should be i guess. It's strange. I know i love my friends and family but i dont (and havent had for a while) that love for someone and at the same time, im not longing for it either. I guess i need to find that in me first.