I'm really frustrated with this goal. I've had to call my mother several times this week due to a certain sitation im dealing with concearning my school. I'm trying to take care of it as best I can, but she's not making it any easier on me. She has made me cry the past two days in a row (I dont ever cry). With the added stress of what's going on it's a little much. She blew me out over the phone this afternoon and it has all really hit me hard. She has to realize the stress I am under.

     I'm trying to talk to her and keep communication, especially through this issue now, but it is really difficult. I'm learning that this goal isn't going to work unless she wants it also. This has to be a two way thing. It's very difficult to reach out to someone who I don't feel reaching back. Part of me just wants her to leave me alone and let me handle things myself if she's just going to make it worse. But another part of me needs a mama right now. I need her support now more than ever. This has caused some inner turmoil of its own, which is putting too much on me. I don't want to let it go or give up on my goal, but I cannot do this on my own.
-Hannah