We made it out for another walk this afternoon before I actually got in the shower and actually fixed myself up to go to dinner! I haven't bothered trying to look nice in so long, I forgot how much of a difference it can make. I actually felt presentable. Maybe I even looked nice!
Dinner was good - I was relaxed instead of anxious and met a couple of new people and it actually felt good. I have been avoiding new social situations for some time. It felt somehow familiar and nice to talk to someone new. Time flew by for once. I realized all of a sudden it was late and I hadn't been at home just glued to the television like I normally am on a Sunday night.
I hope this minor upswing is a stable one. I am still cautious because I hate to be disappointed. I know it's been the weekend - and I have the support of my fiance and we had good weather....I hope I can wake up and keep the good feeling going. I am not asking for much - I hope - just that I won't feel suddenly horrible when I wake up.

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Lucy570
Lucy570

My hats off to you, you are doing wonderful. I keep up with your journals, as I like to hear how you are doing. Remember, baby steps be with you and get you where you want to be. I am happy you have a fiance who is proud of you. That helps out a lot, not to be so alone. I spend most of my days alone and feel like what is the use to get out of bed anymore. I wish you well, you deserve a gold star or superhero status. Take care.
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Keep up the good work and attitude. What a wonderful thing that you were able to get out of the house. Way to go!