Joanna, what a BEAUTIFUL song! I really enjoyed this (and really related to the verse...\"I\'m tired of being a fighter\"...(!) But every day, our reunion gets closer and closer and we\'ll finally be \"beamed up!\" - something to so look forward to...And I noticed the connection with the word \"BEAM\" in this journal entry and also the March 18 entry! :-)
Continue the good fight! I admire your strength!
Love to you and David, Donna
Dear Joanna: That was a beautiful song was that Lady Gaga? Just so touching, thank you for sharing that song with everyone. Bless your angel love mary ann
How odd you should think you don\'t write good journals... I have found much inspiration in your journals... Matter of fact I shared something you shared and also the response by a FMO mom... Kingsdaughter I think her name was just a short while before we left on vacation with a couple of people and also on Facebook... It was the blog by Lisa... the part about learning to live with Love and Loss... side by side... Just because you didn\'t write it... you shared it... and it was and is so inspirational...
Actually one of the other moms had mentioned your journal for today... How much she liked it... and I have to agree... It is so on target..
Oh wow... yes please beam me up... but just one minute... oh no... much much more... and the part about not saying a thing... just holding her face...
I will be content for the longest to just be there... no words needed... just to be there with Cara... to feel her warmth... to be totally feeling her love... loving her... Oh I wish so desperately... and someday... it will happen...
It made me think of what for me was a happier more wonderful moment than I can really describe... some people might not have felt the same... It occurred at what was also the hardest parts of our lives... long story short... Cara was in a psyche hospital... suicide attempt... they wouldn\'t let me see her for about a week and a half... I can hardly stand to remember how bad I felt when I first saw her... in just those few days she had lost several pounds... she was already too small... but now... her small thin wrists... shaking hands... I remember it all too well... kills me to think of her pain... but there was a moment I\'ll never forget... we had been taken into a room for a family counseling session... Cara was angry with me because she was there... I had not had a choice... they had done a PEC and forced us to put her in the psyche hospital... I to be blunt think it was a crock... a money making exercise for the DHH and the state of Louisiana... she definitely needed assistance learning coping skills and help dealing with what was going on in her life... but the hospital... they put her in the psyche hospital with children who had lived with situations Cara had never even imagined... Sadly Cara lived many nightmares before her death... and I think its very possible the state helped begin the long road to her death... but that\'s another story...
Sorry as I write I am reliving it... as I said... it was an awful time in our lives... but there was as I said... that one moment... so Cara dropped angrily on the couch... keeping as much space on the limited space of the couch as she could between us... I could feel her tension... her anger... and her pain... The therapist gave me a run down on their concerns for Cara and their treatment plan and what had been going on. She gathered general family and environment information from me to try to get a picture of Cara\'s life before she came to the hospital...
I was so tired... I had worked all night, and immediately left Houma when I got off work to drive the 3 hours to the hospital to attend the session and to see Cara. I felt so sad that she was sitting there... inches away physically but separated by her anger as if it were miles... Finally I couldn\'t help it... I said, \"Cara, I know you\'re angry with me... I have missed you so much... would you please sit here beside me?\" She didn\'t say anything... but she turned so that her back was to me... but she was touching my arm with her back... I didn\'t protest... I was just so glad to be even a little near her... then gradually she relaxed... I felt her relaxing and shortly she was leaning against me... I felt the warm welcome weight of her against my arm... It was like we began to heal from that moment... so when I think of being with Cara... mostly... I don\'t feel like there is anything I want to say... I mean not immediately... I just want to be there beside her...
OMG - as many times as I\'ve heard that song (I have the album), I never listened to those words. Unbelieveable. I was hysterical with tears - its so much how I feel. For only a minute - just beam me up. Unbelieveable. Thank you so much for bringing to this me today! I also lost my son to cancer, but to brain cancer - when he was just 22 years old. I\'m coming up on his 2 year angel date in September. Still raw - I guess we all are and always will be. Thanks again for the inspiration today, sweetie. Patti
Thanks for sharing, loved it. \"Make me feel lighter, I\'m tired of being a fighter\"...how true, some days it is just hard to give the good fight. Sue xo
The same verse that resonates for me is the same one that did for Sue... The desire to feel lighter... Problem is I were \"Beamed Up\" I don\'t think I\'d choose to \"Come back down\" if I had a choice. Just sayn...
Thank you for sharing this song as I had not heard of it before... Loved it and was so healing.
What a beautiful son. I listened and listened again and cried and cried. The words are beautiful. I want to get it downloaded too. Love and hugs and peace to you....Nell
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I forgot to say that unfortunately you have to listen to the advertisement first.....
Joanna, what a BEAUTIFUL song! I really enjoyed this (and really related to the verse...\"I\'m tired of being a fighter\"...(!) But every day, our reunion gets closer and closer and we\'ll finally be \"beamed up!\" - something to so look forward to...And I noticed the connection with the word \"BEAM\" in this journal entry and also the March 18 entry! :-)
Continue the good fight! I admire your strength!
Love to you and David, Donna
couldn\'t download it.......how are you?
I loved the song! Can relate to it and the words are beautiful... xox Debbie
thanks for sharing! It brought tears to my eyes.
Not to worry about the commercial. I am getting used to them!
Hugs, M
Dear Joanna: That was a beautiful song was that Lady Gaga? Just so touching, thank you for sharing that song with everyone. Bless your angel love mary ann
How odd you should think you don\'t write good journals... I have found much inspiration in your journals... Matter of fact I shared something you shared and also the response by a FMO mom... Kingsdaughter I think her name was just a short while before we left on vacation with a couple of people and also on Facebook... It was the blog by Lisa... the part about learning to live with Love and Loss... side by side... Just because you didn\'t write it... you shared it... and it was and is so inspirational...
Actually one of the other moms had mentioned your journal for today... How much she liked it... and I have to agree... It is so on target..
Oh wow... yes please beam me up... but just one minute... oh no... much much more... and the part about not saying a thing... just holding her face...
I will be content for the longest to just be there... no words needed... just to be there with Cara... to feel her warmth... to be totally feeling her love... loving her... Oh I wish so desperately... and someday... it will happen...
It made me think of what for me was a happier more wonderful moment than I can really describe... some people might not have felt the same... It occurred at what was also the hardest parts of our lives... long story short... Cara was in a psyche hospital... suicide attempt... they wouldn\'t let me see her for about a week and a half... I can hardly stand to remember how bad I felt when I first saw her... in just those few days she had lost several pounds... she was already too small... but now... her small thin wrists... shaking hands... I remember it all too well... kills me to think of her pain... but there was a moment I\'ll never forget... we had been taken into a room for a family counseling session... Cara was angry with me because she was there... I had not had a choice... they had done a PEC and forced us to put her in the psyche hospital... I to be blunt think it was a crock... a money making exercise for the DHH and the state of Louisiana... she definitely needed assistance learning coping skills and help dealing with what was going on in her life... but the hospital... they put her in the psyche hospital with children who had lived with situations Cara had never even imagined... Sadly Cara lived many nightmares before her death... and I think its very possible the state helped begin the long road to her death... but that\'s another story...
Sorry as I write I am reliving it... as I said... it was an awful time in our lives... but there was as I said... that one moment... so Cara dropped angrily on the couch... keeping as much space on the limited space of the couch as she could between us... I could feel her tension... her anger... and her pain... The therapist gave me a run down on their concerns for Cara and their treatment plan and what had been going on. She gathered general family and environment information from me to try to get a picture of Cara\'s life before she came to the hospital...
I was so tired... I had worked all night, and immediately left Houma when I got off work to drive the 3 hours to the hospital to attend the session and to see Cara. I felt so sad that she was sitting there... inches away physically but separated by her anger as if it were miles... Finally I couldn\'t help it... I said, \"Cara, I know you\'re angry with me... I have missed you so much... would you please sit here beside me?\" She didn\'t say anything... but she turned so that her back was to me... but she was touching my arm with her back... I didn\'t protest... I was just so glad to be even a little near her... then gradually she relaxed... I felt her relaxing and shortly she was leaning against me... I felt the warm welcome weight of her against my arm... It was like we began to heal from that moment... so when I think of being with Cara... mostly... I don\'t feel like there is anything I want to say... I mean not immediately... I just want to be there beside her...
I LOVE this song, it makes me cry every time I hear it!! I love Pink too!!!
Love you!!!
Debi
OMG - as many times as I\'ve heard that song (I have the album), I never listened to those words. Unbelieveable. I was hysterical with tears - its so much how I feel. For only a minute - just beam me up. Unbelieveable. Thank you so much for bringing to this me today! I also lost my son to cancer, but to brain cancer - when he was just 22 years old. I\'m coming up on his 2 year angel date in September. Still raw - I guess we all are and always will be. Thanks again for the inspiration today, sweetie. Patti
WOW
I just listened.....now I\'m going to iTunes to buy it....
Thanks for sharing this. I needed to hear it today!
Thanks for sharing, loved it. \"Make me feel lighter, I\'m tired of being a fighter\"...how true, some days it is just hard to give the good fight. Sue xo
Beautiful...I love it! Thank you so much for sharing!
The same verse that resonates for me is the same one that did for Sue... The desire to feel lighter... Problem is I were \"Beamed Up\" I don\'t think I\'d choose to \"Come back down\" if I had a choice. Just sayn...
Thank you for sharing this song as I had not heard of it before... Loved it and was so healing.
XXOO Joanie
What a beautiful son. I listened and listened again and cried and cried. The words are beautiful. I want to get it downloaded too. Love and hugs and peace to you....Nell
Yes Joanne, what I would not do for on more minute. Love to all our children. Thank you for sharing. Hugs, Kathy