I'm not too good at journaling yet, I guess, but some-one sent me this and I kinda liked it so thought I would post - even though it goes without saying, of course, that our children will always be present in our lives....
Part of the process (of rebirth) is the growth of a new relationship with the dead ... that veritable ami mort Saint-Exupery speaks of. Like all gestation, it is a slow, dark, wordless process. While it is taking place one is painfully vulnerable. One must guard and protect the new life growing within - like a child. - Anne Morrow Lindbergh
It is over shaky ground - this journey between the relationship we had when the person was alive and the relationship we come to have with the dead. We don't know what to expect, don't even know what we're looking for. Are we fooling ourselves, conjuring up the possibility that we can have a relationship with someone who's died?
Perhaps it is a little like a first-time parent who, anxious that something may go wrong, has to keep going back and checking on the baby. Is the baby all right? Still breathing? Still peacefully sleeping?
After a while the parent becomes more confident. The baby really is there, and safe, but as with other miracles, this miracle of birth takes getting used to. Perhaps in like manner comes the slowly dawning confidence that in the mystery of living, it is possible to have an ongoing relationship with the departed.
I will open my heart in trust that, in ways I might not now understand, my loved one will continue to be present in my life.