Too much

I have been more anxious than sad lately.  I am still depressed but more nervous than anything.  I have been looking for work and signed up with a temp agency and they had me in for an interview yesterday.  This was very hard for me since my anxiety is sky high but it went okay I guess.  A friend of mine told me to apply at her job.  She said she will do all she can to get me in.  I am scared.  That job would be great especially having someone I know there.  It would make me less nervous.  The stray cat I had fixed decided to move in and that makes me nervous.  More expenses.  And I can't afford Obamacare.  The doctor prescribed buspar for my anxiety and I think it makes me worse but she said it takes time.  A lot of people on the anxiety board do not like it.  I have to study for my seasonal job.  My neighbor is a bit better that I do stuff for.  Since I lost Stephen I really do not see anything but a bleak future.  I am just so afraid of everything.  I don't know which is worse the anxiety or the depression.  I pray and pray for everyone and everything constantly.  I don't think it will ever get better.  My only peace is when I sleep.