Another day

All of the arrangements have been made. Bob’s brother Rus came to the funeral home and to the church with me yesterday to finalize things. Rachel and Becca also came to the church to do some of the planning. Matt stayed home – sick with the flu and a high fever. His job has become to make sure he gets well.
The funeral is Wednesday. I feel bad for Becca, as it is spring break week for her. What a memory for spring break, senior year of high school. I’m hoping that some of her friends will still be in town for the funeral so that they can show their support. I know already that a lot of my friends will not be around for the funeral, as they are traveling for spring break. I do know, however, they will be with me in spirit, and have been here to support me all along and will continue to be there to support me in the future.
Hospice was here today to take all of the medical equipment and hospital bed. That was tough. It was hard to see the room so empty without the hospital bed. We had been mainly living in that room, eating dinner together in there as a family when Bob was still eating, and in too much pain to get out of bed. I heard a cough today, and my first instinct was to get up and check on Bob.
Suzi, the hospice nurse, called today and talked with me a bit. She warned that the days after the funeral, after the commotion, after family has gone home are the difficult ones. She also said it would be very difficult next fall after Becca leaves for college. Gives a new meaning to “empty nest”. I will be all alone in this house.
I think that I need to think about something else for a while.
Thanks to all my DS friends for the kind words and encouragement. I thank God for each one of you!