whenever we go through a rough patch, i know i don't wanna run, i don't wanna leave you. i want to stay. i want to talk it out or work it out or whatever. and i want to keep you close. you're so important to me, i can't let you go. what we have, what we're building up to, is so important. i look forward to getting through the hard times, because we'll be stronger in the end. and what's really great about this whole thing, this "us" is that i know you really truly actually love me. and i know that i really truly actually love you. and to me that means commitment, that means forever.... that connection i've waited to feel, with everybody else, i finally feel that with you. and i just want to celebrate!!! lol.... it makes me so happy, i want to keep going on with you, keep going crazy with you, and even go through the rough patches *with you.* cause now i finally know what this whole love thing is all about.
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this was a message to nick, 2 days ago.
i really felt it was true. that day i felt wonderful in every way, i finally felt home in myself and my life :) .... we had gone to BEvans, and drove around a bit, and i told him we need to go home so i can fuck his brains out. i felt totally confident and in charge that day.
and yet, i still need to see how much he really reaches out to me. like, the night before, he asked me to go to BEvans w him the next day. but then after that i decided i'm not going to text him first at all, as is usually the case. i got no text from him at all yesterday, and so far today (it's noon now) all i got was a pic he sent me, and also posted to FB. i don't really count that :( .... i still need to feel wanted.