what is a healthy relationship? How much am i supposed to expect. what am i supposed to want and need, and am i being unfair?
#1 we have completely separate lives. #2 he goes to another girls house instead of coming home for dinner. #3 we disagree on so many things. #4 we dont have hardly any common interests. #5 i'm starting to think the only thing we have is our sex life, that it's our only thing, it's THE only thing keeping us together.
why was he so upset when i almost broke up with him? what is it that really tore at his heart? was it really his ego upset that someone wanted to leave him? would he really have missed me for ME?
i fully enjoy when he's not home, and usually get bummed out when he comes home.
i'm starting to wonder about: maybe i've got some wool in my eyes, i can't quite see his flaws, after all these years. i'm so frickin' tired. i'm worn down. but if i want to break it off, what do i tell him? what do i tell myself? what is it that's really going on? am i really goin all crazy and blowin things outta proportion? i need hard facts before i can make a decision. but what?
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i also need to figure out exactly what i expect of him as far as family is concerned. so far i've got: "you need to be more involved with family" but what about examples?