i am caught in a downward spiral of negativity, grief and shame. its twelve o'clock and i have nothing to show for it. ive lost 4 hours to nothingness. i want to just hang my head and do nothing.id be home by now if i had used my time wisely. id be getting things done if id have gotten ready. i dont want to go now. its too late. i wont get anything done and its all my fault. i am stupid and i am ashamed of myself. i cant do anything right.
i have 3 hours to utilize. i can pick up that package. i can stop at the library. i can stop at krogers and get what we need. 3 hours. i can do this.
i feel sick to my stomach, and i feel like bursting into tears. im so anxious ?
i have 3 whole hours. i will pick up that package. i will swing by the library. i will pick up groceries. i will.