I have been doing well with my bp for a while now. So I closed an account I had about 5mnths ago for several reasons, but I have found myself wanting to write in a journal again.
So here I'am. I have realized that being here has caused some problems for me. I want to talk to other's about bp and continue to learn from others but it is dredging up alot of my past that I'am still trying to get through. I have already met a few nice people and I honestly have to say that I have more friends now on here than I ever did before. But then again I have only been able to get to know about 4 of them.
Last night I wasn't able to sleep. This hasn't happened in a long time. I also cried yesterday and I really can't say why. I'am terrified of being dragged back into the darker side of bp. I'am staying as positive as I possibly can. I refuse to let this disease control my life!
Changing subjects: As a family things are going well. We are having a yard sale on Saturday. I hate yard sales. They are hot and tiring. That and I'am not a morning person. I'am looking forward to watching TrueBlood this Sunday. I love that show! Yaaaa!
Sorry if my journals jump around alot. It's just me
Have a great day everyone!
So here I'am. I have realized that being here has caused some problems for me. I want to talk to other's about bp and continue to learn from others but it is dredging up alot of my past that I'am still trying to get through. I have already met a few nice people and I honestly have to say that I have more friends now on here than I ever did before. But then again I have only been able to get to know about 4 of them.
Last night I wasn't able to sleep. This hasn't happened in a long time. I also cried yesterday and I really can't say why. I'am terrified of being dragged back into the darker side of bp. I'am staying as positive as I possibly can. I refuse to let this disease control my life!
Changing subjects: As a family things are going well. We are having a yard sale on Saturday. I hate yard sales. They are hot and tiring. That and I'am not a morning person. I'am looking forward to watching TrueBlood this Sunday. I love that show! Yaaaa!
Sorry if my journals jump around alot. It's just me
Have a great day everyone!
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I\'ve been thinking a lot about closing my ds account recently. I made a lot of really good friends here, but I\'ve also met a lot of people who seem determined to upset and mess me around. And the latter only add to the already-complicated moments in my life.
What keeps me coming back here (granted, not as much as I used to), are those fantastic people who want to help as well as being helped. They keep me fighting when I feel like giving up, and I hope that I offer the same support when our roles are reversed.
All of this is my round-about way of saying, that if you need me, just drop me a line! :-)
(and as for your journals jumping around... hehe, it\'s something else that I can relate to! lol)
Keep smiling, honey xxx
There always seem to be situations trying to claw away our inner peace and joy in life. It\'s our loved ones and friends who help keep us centered in the universe. And some how, the stars align correctly for us.
Well, that is my thought for you considering that I don\'t know what BP is. But regardless, I\'m here for you too. (((ShivIT)))