101.5
So all I have to be tomorrow is 100.0 and fuck when I weighed myself today it was 101.5 Grrrr.
This morning I was planning to go to my father inlaws house to reorganzie the basement for him. LOTS of stuff. He has MILLIONS of books! But due to a project with his company were various staff members did not fullfil their duties, he had to spend the whole day working on that so it could be presented tomorrow.
I haven't stuck to my plan because I freaked out at 101.5 I know I have leeway with the scale tomorrow, so I'm not worried.
I reorganzied and cleaned our apartment from top to bottom today. Did laundry, cooked, did everything to keep me busy.
had tons of energy...then dead...then energy...then dead..now depressed and sad. don't wanna do anything.
carlos just told me that my parents looked in my Anxiety Work book. Great. now i have to look in that to see what I wrote.
2 positive things this weekend:
1) over 100
2) decided to not decrease meds even though i wanted to (shows initiative and that im trying)
3) i am joing an eating disorders support group on tuesday nights (shows initiative and effort to get better)
I know joanna is going to ask me what I was to talk about/work on tomorrow. I don't know. Should I say anger? I don't know. I feel like everything is just related to being a low weight. Maybe controlling my emotions and putting a barrier between me and what I say? Maybe to work on how to get away from being needy or dependent upon others? Try to explore ways for me NOT to want attention or the focus to be on me.
IDEAS anyone! Please!!!
This morning I was planning to go to my father inlaws house to reorganzie the basement for him. LOTS of stuff. He has MILLIONS of books! But due to a project with his company were various staff members did not fullfil their duties, he had to spend the whole day working on that so it could be presented tomorrow.
I haven't stuck to my plan because I freaked out at 101.5 I know I have leeway with the scale tomorrow, so I'm not worried.
I reorganzied and cleaned our apartment from top to bottom today. Did laundry, cooked, did everything to keep me busy.
had tons of energy...then dead...then energy...then dead..now depressed and sad. don't wanna do anything.
carlos just told me that my parents looked in my Anxiety Work book. Great. now i have to look in that to see what I wrote.
2 positive things this weekend:
1) over 100
2) decided to not decrease meds even though i wanted to (shows initiative and that im trying)
3) i am joing an eating disorders support group on tuesday nights (shows initiative and effort to get better)
I know joanna is going to ask me what I was to talk about/work on tomorrow. I don't know. Should I say anger? I don't know. I feel like everything is just related to being a low weight. Maybe controlling my emotions and putting a barrier between me and what I say? Maybe to work on how to get away from being needy or dependent upon others? Try to explore ways for me NOT to want attention or the focus to be on me.
IDEAS anyone! Please!!!
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