It has been such a long time since I have had a smile like that on my face. I am so happy everyone. I'm so glad I have her in my life now. I feel like I have a purpose in life again. I'm so happy to wake up in the middle of the night to feed and to change her and to just spend time with her. I'm so thankful I have someone to wake up to now. I'm so thankful Nickolus sent her to me from heaven. I now have two angels, just one is further away and I won't get to see him for a while. I know he's by my side and watching over me and his little sister. I posted more pics everyone if y'all want to check them out and please leave your comments because I love reading them! I hope everyone is doing okay and I want to wish everyone a Happy Easter!! Oh by the way.. I took her to the picture studio to get pics done today with a baby bunny rabbit. They turned out so freaking cute but I won't have them to post for a couple weeks. LOL I wanted some naked pics too and right when I take off her diaper and pick her up to set her down, she pees and poops all over me!! How fantastic!! LOL it all just makes me smile. Nothing could ever upset me with her.  The c-section went fairly smooth. Everything was going by quickly until it came time for me to walk into the operating room. When I got in there it was really cold, but it felt so good because I've been hot this whole pregnancy. I sat up on the table and waited for my spinal tap. When they had me start holding the pillow and my doctor was rubbing my shoulders telling me everything was going to be okay, the panic attack started coming on. I was getting so scared and so overwhelmed. They did the spinal and had to hurry up and spin me on the table because I started going numb right away. My dad was the one in the oeparting room with me since as most of us know, I'm not with the father. He came in and sat next to me and held my hand through the whole thing. I started crying and getting really antzy the further time went on. I started feeling a lot of cutting a pulling and then I heard a cry. They sunctioned out her mouth and she let everyone know she was there. She had some lungs on her. I couldn't hold back I started balling so hard. I kept saying "thank you Nickolus.. thank you so much baby". I know he sent this little angel to me since he couldn't stay with me. We got taken back to recovery where I got to spend about an hour and a half with her just holding her and nursing her. It was so unbelievable. They took her back to do testing while they moved me to a mom-and-baby room where I'd stay until I went home. She developed some type of new born rash that's starting to go away now and should be completely gone by next week. She had jaundice, I take her back to the hospital tomorrow to get her biliruben level checked. Other than that she's wonderful. She's been nursing good, sleeping good, she's so calm and so sweet. I couldn't have asked for anything more perfect!  I hope everyone had a good week and please look at our pictures and leave your comments!! Have a Happy Easter everyone. We love you!