The closer that it gets, the more scared I'm becoming. I'm so scared of loosing her and going through what I went through with Nickolus. I'm so close to holding her and so anxious that she'll slip away before I get the chance to. I sound so paranoid and I AM so paranoid. I want so badly to just tell my doctor please re-schedule me for this week but I don't see him until Wednesday and that'd be too late to change anything unless I delay it. I keep thinking because she's so big what if she like crunches her unmbelical cord or something and doesn't get any oxygen and passes away? I don't know I'm so paranoid all I can focus on are negative things that could and might happen. I'm thinking about all the positive stuff too, I can't wait until I get to hold her close to me and give her sweet kisses but I'm just so scared. I hate that I've had to go through what I have to get to this point. It's so frustrating. I wish so badly I still had my little boy so my thoughts wouldn't be like this and rendering me from being able to be positive about my daughter. I just wish the 17th would hurry the hell up and get here already. I want her here!!
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OMG I feel like that NOW and I have 3 months to go!!! All of these worries you have are totally normal and I have the same ones. I wonder if I will feel them worse closer to my due date? Please just PRAY TO GOD about this, tell him that you cannot handle to lose another child and to let everything be perfect with her, and also ask him to take the worry away. It works, I had to pray about my worry again the other day and I had a good day yesterday!
I can absolutely relate. We actually did bump up the date of my induction for all of those reasons. It was only 3 days earlier, but I got to a point where it had to happen NOW. I wish you all the luck in the world.
.. It\'s hard to stay positive, it really is.. I remember when I lost Kierstyn and was prego with Brett all the anxiety I had.. Ug..
Hang in there... Nothing will happen, you already went though enough HELL .. This little girl will get here and stay here !! LOL, Michelle
so the 17th...a St. Patty\'s lil girl that day is a day of luck (even if you aren\'t Irish) You are going to hold her and she is going to be perfect. I know you are paranoid, and you know what I would be too, so how bout this, we\'ll all have faith for you that is it all going to be okay!! You will have plenty of years with Barbie dolls and Ponies ahead of you, sending you HUGE HUGS!!!!
oh thats so soon....