UGH I am still so pissed about that idiot calling me.. I haven't been able to do anything but obsess over it since it's happened and it's giving me a headache. I wrote him THE nastiest letter Wednesday night before I went to bed because there was just so much I needed to get out. I felt better afterwards but my mind just won't stop racing. I was doing so much better before any of this shit happened because I wasn't ever thinking about him unless I had those night-mares but after I wrote it on here it was gone. Now I'm actually wondering what's been going on.. When is he going to call again.. What's going to happen?THIS IS NO GOOD. I'm so sick of it all. I don't need to get to a point of where I'm missing him and I feel it coming on quicker than I'm going to know how to react to it. I hate what he does to me. He knows how big my heart is and he plays me like a fool for having one. I've been okay the past week because my brothers in town with his wife and kids and my dads been on vacation but what do I do when next week gets here? I'm so scared I don't know what to do.