I was watching LA Ink tonight.. I love that show. I've been wanting to get tattooed by Kat Von D since I saw her on Miami Ink, especially since she specializes in portraits and black and gray. All of my tatts are in black and gray and I wanted a portrait of Nickolus on my back left shoulder and get the rest of my back done for him. The lower part of my back is already tattooed for his memory. I did it the day of his funeral.. I've emailed her site to get an appointment but I'm pregnant now so I had to postpone it. Tonight I was watching the new eppisode and there was a lady getting a portrait of her son by Hannah who passed away from SIDS at just 2 months.. Just seeing that made me really sad. I can't wait to get my life long portrait of my little peanut so he can be everywhere with me. UGH I've been really emotional here lately. I was like this around this time when I was pregnant with Nickolus. I got this really cute photo frame the other day at Kohl's when I was shopping with me mom (we're addicted). It's like a foot long and only about 4 or 5 inches high, and it has a slot for 3 small photos. In front of each photo, at the bottom are the words "hope", "faith", and "love". I wanted to get it because its the perfect size for my sonogram pictures, and I just thought the words went good with how I feel about this new baby. Tomorrow I'm going to see if I can get someone to take a picture of my tattoo that I got for Nickolus so I can put it on here. It's really beautiful. It's really big too. It's a cross with huge wings and a halo and a ribbon across the cross with his name in it. IT HURT SO BAD. None of my other tattoos hurt but oh my god did that one. The outline was fine, but god when he started shading, and the fact that it took almost 3 hours and it was just on and on and on the same pain that was self inflicted pretty much.. I wanted to scratch my eyes out. Michael kept making me mad that night and getting up and I kept having to re-adjust because I was leaning on him, and I remember I bit his nose so freaking hard.. jackass.. Anywho... hope all is well with everyone. Love yall.