OOPS!! Sorry about the first entry... I was venting. I started reading some of the other journals on here and found out about Green Smiley Mondays... So how about a fresh one??

Green Smiley Monday.. I'm grateful that I have been having the bad dreams I've been having all week to keep me from feeling sorry for Michael. I'm grateful I have a loving grandmother who understands me and all the chaos I cause and also put myself through. I'm grateful for everyone on here who supports me and shows the love I so desperately need at times like this. I'm grateful to have had 7 months and 3 weeks with my beautiful baby boy who was perfect in every way possible. I'm grateful that he keeps his hand on my shoulder and is doing his best to guide me through these tough times. I'm grateful for the people I worked with at Olive Garden and their compassion and their hearts and the fact that they've worried about me after hearing about what happened.

My goal for this week is to my best to keep my mental state in the best condition and to try and fight this depression I've been going into. To stay close with my family and create a bond that is unbreakable for my new little one to come into and have all the love it deserves. To not worry about Michael, and to speak the GM at Olive Garden where I worked, and smooth things over and let them know I'm okay. And to also help out in anyway possible to anyone here on DS who needs an ear, or whatever I have to offer.

It's a little more, I know. I just have a lot to be grateful for and a lot I need to work on too!! I love all of y'all and hope you're all doing great.