I feel so disgusted right now. I am best friends with Michael's youngest brother, Jash. I was just on the phone with him and he was telling me about some stuff with his ex girl that he's talking too again. He said she called him twice last night but he was at work, and then he said dumbass was there last night too and he got to have a talk with him about what happened between us. Jay said he told him that what happened wasn't cool no matter what he thinks is excusable in his eyes because I'm pregnant and blah blah blah. And you know what he said Michael told him? That he doesn't give a fuck. I don't see how someone can just be so in-humane like that. And to not give a fuck about someone else's life, especially they're own child whether they wanted them or not. It just disgusts me that I ever slept with him or even shared any type of intimate moment with him. It disgusts me that I trusted him with my sons life and he neglected him and forced him to go to sleep when he was upset and crying and he ended up rebreathing carbon dioxide and passed away. I want him to pay so badly that it hurts down to my bones. I want to have him set up and have someone beat the living day lights out of him and see how he likes it. I know just the person that owes me a favor that has beat the crap out of more people than oscar de la hoya. But then it would probably come back to bite me in the ass.. You know it pisses me off that in TX when a bad person does something they get away with it.. but if I were to do something like what I want to get revenge because he'll never get it any other way, I'd end up getting the book thrown at me. I am so pissed off right now.