Man am I feeling pooped.. I didn't get to bed until like 5 this morning and woke up at 11 to go somewhere with my mom... I had to drive out to north Dallas where she works at and we went to get some stuff for the house (decoration stuff) and then ate lunch.. Then after that I was driving back and drove past the Galleria (the biggest mall in this area..) and couldn't help but going in. That thing has like 5 different parking garages and they're 5 levels.. This mall is so big, it's intimidating.. Seriously. It has 4 levels on the inside, an ice skating rink, and a gagillion stores. I wish I was a millionaire.. I'd love to be able to shop at all the high retail stores they have there (saks fifth avenue, louis vattoun, gucci.. need I say more).I had a really bad dream last night, or this morning. Whenever I fell asleep.. It was really weird too. It was about Michael. At first I was with Michael and he was going to his ex to get money from her or something and she was talking crap about me and that pissed me off and I started talking crap back to her and Michael took her side and started screwing with me like he was psychotic or something.. It was just weird.. Then after that I was like in a bath tub or something and he was there telling me its time to have the baby and he's going to take it and I was like no I can't have it it won't live and he was like saying that he was going to rip it out of me or something. He seemed like possessed or something in the dream.. It was really bad. I think its just my sub-conscience letting me know that it's never going to get better it's just going to keep getting worse and worse. But I haven't tried to contact him, and haven't wanted to. So that's good.. We'll see how long it'll last though. I want it to be forever this time. I know I'll never get the Michael back that I fell in love with. He's long gone, and I won't settle for the person he is now. So something has to give and it's gotta be me. I just have to stay strong.Well I'm pooped, and going to try and go to bed. I love all of y'all and hope everyone is okay and doing good!! TEXAS IS GOING TO WHOOP OU TOMORROW!!! :)~