Tomorrow I'll be 14 weeks... I was just realizing how fast this is all going along. My next doctors appointment is on October 16th, and I'll be 17 weeks and 3 days.... That means he'll schedule me in for a sonogram to see what I'm having!! I'm so freaking excited I can barely take it. I started a "diet" today. When I got pregnant with Nickolus I was at my smallest, I probably weighed about 160 lbs. and wore a size 5 (I'm extremely thick and muscular so 160 is actually very tiny for my build). I also wasn't making the  best lifestyle choices I could have made, but that's neither here nor there. I got depressed after finding out I was pregnant because Michael wanted nothing to do with me and I gained a lot of weight in the first 2 months. Around my 4th or 5th months of pregnancy I got into some trouble with my probation and had to go to rehab (I wasn't using drugs but chose this route to avoid going back to jail..) and there I had no choice about what I ate and gained even more weight. Long story short, I gained about 80 lbs. in my first pregnancy. I lost about maybe 30 lbs. after having Nickolus at my 6 week checkup, but never lost anything else after that and didn't really care. I was happy. Then he passed.. and my weight has really fluctuated since then. I started to loose weight, then I'd gain it back and more from depression and pigging out. So my doctors appointment last week I asked what I need to do to keep up minimal weight gain (he was happy that I gained nothing in the 4 weeks we hadn't seen eachother), and he told me to stay away from carbs. Something I know all about because I've done the atkins diet before and that works for my body type for whatever reason. I know I can't do something that substantial but, I need to do what I can to keep myself from being 300 lbs. when I give birth. Today I've done really good. I woke up too late for breakfast but I had a turkey sandwich on whole weat and some grapes.. Then a snack of some french cut green beans... and only water today. Pretty good, huh? I'm going to get my dog a harness and leash today to take him with me on walks to start exercising some. I am just starting to feel really good about all this!