Well I've been away from here for like a week or so now I think. I'm doing alright... Found out a lot of bad things I didn't really want to know but, hey what can you do about it right? Michael's back on meth and homeless once again and stealing from people who try to help him... Heh, that boy won't ever change. Good riddens. Today I heard something that kinda hit really close to home for me. I think there's some way to listen to it online, I'm going to google it after I'm done writing this entry. It's a graduation speech for some class of 1999, I think called "You're free to wear sunscreen". Anyways, I was listening to it and thought it was kinda funny. It was going on about life and what not, and it said something like don't expect tragic events to occur, they'll blind sight you when you least expect it like on a Tuesday around 4:00. It was a Tuesday around 4:00 when I got the phone call about my little man telling me he wasn't breathing and I needed to come home. Then it went on to say something about to toy with peoples hearts and don't waste you're time trying to figure out why people toy with yours. It was just something that was just so damn true. I'm going to try and find out what it is and if I do I'll let everyone know. I think I figured out a good name if I am going to be blessed with another little boy. I believe it was Leosmommy that told me about a subsequent child being titled as a "healing child" in some book or something like that before. Well I was thinking today and the name Jason kinda stuck with me all day and I kept thinking about it. And it means "healing". So that will defanitly be the name if it's a boy. Because I know he will be doing all kinds of healing for his mommy, and probably so many others. Maybe he'll be a doctor one day :)