Wow... It's been almost 2 weeks, or has it been 2 weeks... almost 3 weeks? Since I've talked to Michael... I don't know but I feel very invigorated. It feels good to not feel that co-dependency anymore. I don't NEED to be with him to feel good.. I don't NEED his touch to make me feel important. I feel good and important all by myself  

I'm getting kinda mad at my job though... I work at Olive Garden waiting tables. I make alright money there and all... but they try to bust my ass when I'm there. I've been getting that fatigued and really tired symptom of pregnancy now for about the past 2-3 weeks. And all I want to do is sleep. It's hard for me to go to bed early for some reason... I usually just sit up in my bed for about atleast an hour just looking around my room in the dark and changing positions constantly trying to fall asleep. And it's even harder for me to get up before noon. So, I changed my availability. I told my manager I can't work lunch shifts, except Sunday because I make good money that day, so I wanted to keep it. But the rest of the week is just too hard. He said he'd change my schedule... and what do I come to see the next week? I'm scheduled 4 lunch shifts... I switched with someone on Saturday, thank God because they have me closing Friday night (which puts me in bed around 1 falling asleep finally at like 2 and getting up at 8:30??), but I was still scheduled for Monday, Wednesday, and Sunday. That really pissed me off. If I tell them I'm not available, I'm not fucking available. It doesn't matter my reasons, they're personal and none of their business in my opinion. They expect all this out of me because everyone is quitting and they're short handed, WELL I'm sorry maybe you should listen to your employees more and quit being jackasses and we'll stop quitting!! I'm really close to quitting... I have 4 more weeks to pay on my car ($800) and then I'M GONE. I can't do it anymore!!!

It'll be nice to just sit back and enjoy my pregnancy at home though. I didn't get to do that with Nickolus and I can't wait to do it with this one.