My Sweet Baby Nickolus~Mommy misses you so much honey. I scanned abunch of your pictures today to put on here in remembrance for you. I had them laid out by the computer and Popo Daddy saw the ones of you a few weeks before you passed and said that he almost forgot how beautiful you were. I don't see how anyone can forget that beautiful bright face of yours. And you're crazy lightning bolt hair. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and miss you to pieces baby. You were my little peanut. My little ray of joy. I wish so badly I could hold you again and hug and kiss you and squeeze your little butt and let you chew on my finger... You weren't supposed to ever leave me baby. We were a team remember? I hope you're being taken care of up there in Heaven daddy. I pray that you watch over me and stay as close to my heart as you possibly can. Please watch over your new little brother or sister. We're both going to need you very much. It's been such a struggle without you daddy. I wish I still had you to bring all the joy in my life that you once did. You were the happiest part of me ever. You always smiled and I know that you loved me with all you're heart and I can't help but feel that I've failed you. I'm so sorry for leaving you that day I hope you're not mad at me. Please take care baby and come see me in my dreams so we can play together okay daddy? I miss you... XOXOXOXO Mommy