10 minutes
i couldnt even go 10 mintuesi realised tonight i was cut free. just a bunch of scars. the minute i said i had no cuts the urges crept in and they crept in fast.saying goodnight to everyone it took me a few minutes to grab a blade and attack my thigh which has only just stopped bleeding...why am i so fucked up that i couldnt even go one night knowing i was clean.its not fair... now i have to see my bf tomorrow who'll probably find them and tell me off... in love, he supports me, which is probably a good thing.
GAH off to sleep now im pissed off at myself.xx
hmm just changed the entry to frustrating and saw poetic/artistic... should i post some of my poems? hmmm :/
GAH off to sleep now im pissed off at myself.xx
hmm just changed the entry to frustrating and saw poetic/artistic... should i post some of my poems? hmmm :/
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Aww sweetheart I\'m sorry you had the urge to cut tonight. Isn\'t it funny how it just sneaks in there and the next thing you know your doing it? Its almost involuntary. But nothing worth doing is going to be easy. Don\'t feel down about it. Just start over tommorow and reset the counter! Every minute is a victory!
thanks :) i like that.
each minute instead of a day... look at it by mintues... very clever :) made me smile
i hate how it makes me wanna do it. it is like its involuntary. :/
and i hate how i feel better aferwardss :(