10/28/2014
Time is zooming towards the day when I start my new life. I'm hoping to make it a normal life where I cook, clean, and do the things I'm supposed to do. Where I'm not a vampire/sloth. It's been so long though. I will have to fight my natural desire to be a lazy sloth. I will also have to fight harder to not give in to the depression that encourages the sloth in me.
Many changes I need to make in myself in order that this new life will be all that it can and should be. I have no willpower. I have no self discipline to make myself do what I dont want to do.
Many changes I need to make in myself in order that this new life will be all that it can and should be. I have no willpower. I have no self discipline to make myself do what I dont want to do.
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I saw him at the grocery store Friday night. He was all the way across the store from me. When he saw me he just sort of raised his hand in a half/wave.
I have a feeling he knows I\'m leaving and that I\'m deliberately not letting him know anything. I know my friends wouldnt tell him, but it wouldnt surprise me if they have told others who would tell him. Small town gossip, you know. Nothing to base this on...Just a feeling. It is what it is.
This move is going to be so good for you. A new town to explore, a new job to challenge you. It won\'t be easy but you will make a new life for yourself.
Hi, I don\'t know you, but found myself here from your post in depression group. I don\'t like to hear you call yourself names. Depression is an all encompassing illness, which causes malaise, lack of energy, lack of motivation, sadness, etc. You obviously are depressed. That does not make you a lazy sloth. I get that you feel that way, but it\'s not true. Don\'t re-enforce those type of thoughts. It\'s not healthy for you. You obviously are a strong person, making a big change in your life. Be proud of that. You havn\'t given up, like so many people do. You are going out of your comfort zone, to improve you life. That takes guts. Be kind to yourself!
I like sloths. I think they are cute and would love to have one as a pet. I dont consider it an insult. Thanks, though! Many of my friends who are of an age are having knee replacement surgery, etc. I tell them they wouldnt have that problem if they were more like me...lol
Honey, I hope you waved, smiled and slowly walked away with head up and giggling. That is what I do when I run into him, which is very rare, thank God for that. As for doing things that you do not want to do, don\'t . Where is it written that we have to do them. I have a student come in to help me clean the place. They need volunteer hours for their school year. I usually squirrel them some money. They really do a good job and are so appreciative of the extra cash. Live the life that you want, not what society thinks you should Hugs and smile
I\'m thinking of yelling \"EBOLA\" so Hazmat can come clean it all out.