1 am thoughts

This all feels fake. Like youre gonna keep texting me good morning and talking to me about your day. I cant get it through my brain that you're not gonna be around anymore. I wish i could lay with you and feel your heartbeat against my back. I wish i could hold your hand and stroke your fingertips. I wish i could lay in complete silence with my head on your chest and listen to you breathe. I wish I could stroke your cheek and kiss your lips and feel your warmth. I wish i could wake up and see your smiling face, cook with you, be silly with you, shower together, cuddle, just be in your presence. saying goodbye to you was the hardest thing I've ever done and my heart wont forgive me for it. im missing you so badly and i cant wait to be with you again, forever. Im scared ill forget the sound of your voice, the taste of your lips, and the touch of your skin. more importantly im afraid you'll forget mine. as long as you don't forget how loved you are, a piece of me that is with you will always be okay.