1/29/2013

Not earth shattering, but an episode happened today which brought me face to face with a lot of fear, anger, and anxiety, and some depression,,,in doing someone a favor ,,,I wound up getting a ticket for not paying attention while driving in a school zone in a city that is notorious for handing out tickets at the slightest whim,,,I was talking to this person and was distracted to go about 5 miles above the speed limit ,,,posted was 15 and I went about 20 at some point and I got pulled over ,,bottom line is that this will cost me a couple of hundred dollars and nailed onto my insurance premium for the next 3 years ,,that is what happens in Florida,,,I could not get mad at the person,,only at myself for allowing myself to get distracted ,,the cop wouldn't hear any of it ,,,and thought it best to keep my mouth shut ,,,,,so it was a down day,,,
It is late ..just wish that I could chat with someone on here ,,I tend to isolate at times,,spoke to one friend that was very good ,,went to a meeting AA earlier today to get a bit out of my head for just a while anyway,,,and although this is not really a crisis,,,it does get me down on myself,,,and I would enjoy the company ,,,