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Why can't things just go right? I wish I could get really sick or something and be hospitalized for a while......but actually, I would just rather things go right. I'm scared though..........I'm scared to keep trying. I want friends, I want to fall in love, I want to be in good terms with my family, but I don't want the betrayal, the hurt and pain, the neglect and abandonment, and any of the other things that comes with. I just want to be happy. I want to be happy all the time, and peaceful. I want to make others happy, but it's not realistic. This world wont let everything work out. But I really really really just want everything and everyone to be good.