This past July I left my job, friends, and place I had lived for 7 years to move home and start a life with my fiancé, Andrew. Our wedding date was set for October 4. We got an apartment and were finalizing details for the wedding. I had just started a new job. He had a heart attack and died suddenly 7 weeks ago. My entire future plans and dreams just crashed. I had to resign from my job because I didn't have any time off. Ive moved back in with my parents who are so supportive. But I feel like no one else understands this devastation. How do I move forward with this huge hole in my heart? I am trying to get back to work and looking for other jobs, but I want to do so in a completely new area. I know his friends are grieving but they don't reach out to me, and I don't think my friends understand. I don't even feel like seeing them when they have their husbands and happy lives. Is it a good idea to start fresh in a brand new city/town? I feel awful, and its even more painful to look at pictures of him. I almost want to shut it all in a box and never think about it because I still can't bare that he isn't here with me anymore. I've never felt so alone or lost. Where do I go from here??