Expect to be emotional right now. Affirmations are great, when we are ready to hear them, You seem very self-aware in that you describe being "afraid" of loving you. That's the question to ponder, then: Why are you afraid of loving you?

God, as you understand him to be, does really love you. He loves you without the fear you are feeling. Just a pure, unconditional love. In my opinion, that is what us humans are always striving towards. My God gives me the hope that that type of love is within us and is possible.

I hope you continue the affirmations and try not to be so judgmental of yourself. This is a hard period in your life, and you are allowed not to be perfect or at your best. for what it's worth, all of your writing speaks of a woman who is doing everything it takes to make progress. Be proud of that and keep on keepin'on...

Thank you for the thoughts. I did not realize I might be judging myself??? I have only realized how much I really did not like myself about 6 months ago. Already I have come a long way from where I was at. Lots of self criticism and self neglect. My cheerleader is front and center most days now.

It's sad that people can live there life and be unhappy not even know that they don't like themselves. I wanted to change that right away. It takes time though and I slip backwards every now and then. I have noticed that yes, during this awful and sad time I am slipping backwards with self love. So thank you for helping me get back to forward.

I get this too. I went back to church about 7 years ago whilst still married to my ex husband. I always felt like I belonged there and used to cry at points in the service that spoke about God's love. My then husband was an aethiest. My marriage was unhappy or should I say I was. I met a man and had an affair - he worked for the church and one of the things that drew me to him was his faith and spirituality. The relationship was so toxic and he had many issues (as did I). Since we have not been together I have not been able to go back to church. At Christmas I never went once - I miss it so much. I watched a service on the TV the other Sunday and it talked about Gods love and I cried a river. I make so many negative associations about the church and my X that its hard to go there.

These past few weeks of realizing "I Love Too Much", I've started walking 2 - 3 miles on the days that the weather permits it. I don't take any headphones or cell phone or distractions. I let my mind wander to where ever it wants to go. Wow - just the repeated motion of simply putting one foot in front of the other and letting my mind roam has really let me come to some significant conclusions and growth that I think would have taken alot longer had I not started walking. I just wanted to share this in case anyone needs ideas that would speed up their recovery.