Women who Love too Much Community Group
WHEN BEING IN LOVE, MEANS BEING IN PAIN... This group is to help women through the journey of realizing they can love themselves. To help realize that they are capable of having a happy, healthy, whole relationship and break the cycle of abuse and heartache from loving emotionally unavailable men.
I posted once or twice about the worst relationship I ever had. Met the guy 35 years ago and he STILL turns up occasionally like a bad penny. Made the mistake of agreeing to a personal meeting in June. He was very convincing that he'd changed. Aren't they always?
It had been 29 years since we've seen each other face to face. I'm 66 now and he's 57. Guess he figured by now I'd be too senile to remember the hell he put me through? He was so arrogant and delusional he thought he could just come back and take up where he left off!! Don't they always?
Two popular songs helped me to be strong.
I Will Survive (we all know that one!)
First I was afraid, I was petrified, thinking I could never live without you by my side! Then I spent some lonely nights thinking HOW YOU DONE ME WRONG AND I GOT STRONG!
The other song is Waking Up Alone.
When we went together 30 to 35 years ago the lyric used to TEAR MY SOUL OUT because he was always pulling away for freedom, while I was desperate for commitment.
Walk with me, darling, where the wheatfields used to be, I will tell you stories of my times across the sea, it's an old, familiar poem that STILL WON'T RHYME, I COULD COME BACK TO THE PLACE BUT NOT THE TIME...I never noticed that the years were slipping by, you're still as lovely as the day we said good-bye...
Thank God my 66 year old brain isn't so foggy as to TAKE HIM BACK, UNCONDITIONALLY, NO STRINGS ATTACHED. He was an a$$hole then and he's an a$$hole now!!!! Best feeling in the world was to LISTEN TO HIM BEG. AND THEN HANG UP.
It had been 29 years since we've seen each other face to face. I'm 66 now and he's 57. Guess he figured by now I'd be too senile to remember the hell he put me through? He was so arrogant and delusional he thought he could just come back and take up where he left off!! Don't they always?
Two popular songs helped me to be strong.
I Will Survive (we all know that one!)
First I was afraid, I was petrified, thinking I could never live without you by my side! Then I spent some lonely nights thinking HOW YOU DONE ME WRONG AND I GOT STRONG!
The other song is Waking Up Alone.
When we went together 30 to 35 years ago the lyric used to TEAR MY SOUL OUT because he was always pulling away for freedom, while I was desperate for commitment.
Walk with me, darling, where the wheatfields used to be, I will tell you stories of my times across the sea, it's an old, familiar poem that STILL WON'T RHYME, I COULD COME BACK TO THE PLACE BUT NOT THE TIME...I never noticed that the years were slipping by, you're still as lovely as the day we said good-bye...
Thank God my 66 year old brain isn't so foggy as to TAKE HIM BACK, UNCONDITIONALLY, NO STRINGS ATTACHED. He was an a$$hole then and he's an a$$hole now!!!! Best feeling in the world was to LISTEN TO HIM BEG. AND THEN HANG UP.
I have been with my boyfriend on and off for the last 8 years. The longest my boyfriend and I were broken up was 5 months but he still got me back. In a fight one day he said to me "See how I got you back? I get what I want, it just takes time. I learned that it you knock on the door 1000 times, someone is bound to open door. You keep knocking on doors - new doors, old doors, you just keep it going."
People like my boyfriend, and your ex, and other N's is that they live life as a game, never truly believing that life can be lived in a real way. They don't trust themselves especially anyone else, to not have ulterior motives. They keep knocking, just looking for suckers to buy tickets to their show / game.
The reason your post freaked me out is because he said to me "I will always look for you. I will always try to get you back." I never imagined I would see someone post an attempt like this after so long. Wow - how can it be that people live their ENTIRE lives like this?