I have found myself laughing out loud at some of the things I've come up with to make myself feel better. I think I have told you guys that I gathered up all of XN's things months ago...there was a pick-up truckload of stuff....and told him bye bye....enough...I still have to deal with grocery shopping, of course, and run smack dab into the fact that I only have to buy for myself now and I can get rid of all the stuff in the fridge and cupboards that I bought BECAUSE HE LIKED THEM. This morning I moved around a jar of the peanut butter he preferred (not my choice) for the last time. I had a few slices of bread going stale so I lathered up the bread with the peanut butter, sprinkled on some nuts and stuffed it all into a suet feeder which is the moment my sense of humor kicked in. I could tell myself that it was a waste of time, money,effort and caring to buy stuff for him...his self-centeredness got old and stale and everything I now know about him makes a relationship with him FOR THE BIRDS!!!! Ya. I actually laughed about it.