SO... over the past couple years since he left, i run into him EVERYWHERE. ridiculous coincidences. like him coming out of a tire shop after i stopped for an ice cream. getting gas, and any one of the hundreds of gas stations. but today, me, austin, and ariyah, went to go pick out fish for our tank and walk around the thrift stores, we stopped to get a water at jack in the box, and as we were pulling out, there he goes, oblivios, driving by, right in front of me, if we had been 5 minutes sooner, or taken five minutes more, we would have never even seen him. i stay out of town purposely, because it gives me anxiety to see him, see him running around, with his stupid sunglasses in his stupid car, while i have his screaming daughter in the backseat, as he refuses to see her. which i dont mind. id rather he stay away. i love my daughter. but it just sucks, to see him living his life, doing what he wants, until he decides he is ready and expecting the world to bow to him and coddle him and make excuses for him. why do i always run into him? and its wierd, i get small panick attacks before i see him, so i know he is near, its RIDICULOUS. he is not stalking me, i know that, it just doesnt matter, id say 8 outta ten times, i run into him in random places, or see him passing me by. why cant he just stay out of sight? even times when he is suposed to be out to sea, i feel him nearby, and think, impossible, he is supposed to be gone, and wuala... he is driving by to the post office.
i know when he is gone, its when i feel calm. why does this happen? what do you think? we dont live in such small towns that this should happen continuously, what is the universe trying to tell me? i wont even be thinking of him, and bam, there he goes. ugh. im tired of it.