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I guess i kind of created an experiment on myself.
I left my one ex, who is also my surrogate baby's father... great guy, i just wasnt happy when it came down to it,and neither was he.
Started another relationship soon after.
jumped into it actually, all those things we arent supposed to do as WWLTM. but i gave it a chance, i gave that old fantasy one last chance. at first was great, but in a short time it became clear... yup... i was in the same situation. but i was ready this time, i went into it knowing that no matter the outcome i would be ok... and made the leap. He was lying to me about hanging out or being friends with his ex. ok... boundry crossed, dont lie to me... and done. i moved out. we continued to talk... i listened for a bit. it soon was at his convenience instead of mine, me... the one he lied to that he was trying to prove himself too... LOL
he used his son as an excuse, who is 6 and he has seen very little of in his life. saying he needs to make a way for his son and him and cant focus on relationships because they consume him.
but he would still come over to my house whenever he pleased, or was upset and needed comfort, to talk about his day. He tried this again after i asked him not to. and as i stood my ground on the get out of my house conversation, and that i was done with him, that if he truly did want to be just friends than respect me, and get out. he flew off the deep end, threatening to call the cops, to take the car back that i have been paying him for, which i did to help him out since it was just sitting there. that i deserved the hurt i got because i couldnt let go or leave the past in the past. HA.... jokes on him. i was hurt and upset for a little while when it all first happened, but now i dont care, and when i am around him, i am angry. all my anger for what was done to me i see in him. and the sad part is, he doesnt even know hes doing it. in his mind, he made his mistake, but its me who cannot forgive. Im the one who moved out and didnt give him a chance to fix it.
im the one who takes too long to get over things, and will make my life unhappy.
IDIOT... and its quite hilarious. listening to him... his excuses, even when he tries to own up to his mistakes... and he actually believes his own bullshit... and in the past i would have too... and even when i moved out the in the first place, i distantly hoped, that he would prove himself different... but i knew better.
and i think at this point, i like seeing a grown man cry like a baby. its quite amusing.
so experiment successful, i am strong enough...
Im dropping of the stupid car... i dont want anything to do with him, it is my only tie to him. who cares whether he can make the payment or not now since his money is running out.... i dont care. figure it out, shoulda thought about it.
I smiled at him, and told him i was done, i said you can say all the crazy stories about me that you wish, you can call me any name you want, you can blame me for your failures, and your future mistakes... anything that makes you feel better, but I am just a memory now
I left my one ex, who is also my surrogate baby's father... great guy, i just wasnt happy when it came down to it,and neither was he.
Started another relationship soon after.
jumped into it actually, all those things we arent supposed to do as WWLTM. but i gave it a chance, i gave that old fantasy one last chance. at first was great, but in a short time it became clear... yup... i was in the same situation. but i was ready this time, i went into it knowing that no matter the outcome i would be ok... and made the leap. He was lying to me about hanging out or being friends with his ex. ok... boundry crossed, dont lie to me... and done. i moved out. we continued to talk... i listened for a bit. it soon was at his convenience instead of mine, me... the one he lied to that he was trying to prove himself too... LOL
he used his son as an excuse, who is 6 and he has seen very little of in his life. saying he needs to make a way for his son and him and cant focus on relationships because they consume him.
but he would still come over to my house whenever he pleased, or was upset and needed comfort, to talk about his day. He tried this again after i asked him not to. and as i stood my ground on the get out of my house conversation, and that i was done with him, that if he truly did want to be just friends than respect me, and get out. he flew off the deep end, threatening to call the cops, to take the car back that i have been paying him for, which i did to help him out since it was just sitting there. that i deserved the hurt i got because i couldnt let go or leave the past in the past. HA.... jokes on him. i was hurt and upset for a little while when it all first happened, but now i dont care, and when i am around him, i am angry. all my anger for what was done to me i see in him. and the sad part is, he doesnt even know hes doing it. in his mind, he made his mistake, but its me who cannot forgive. Im the one who moved out and didnt give him a chance to fix it.
im the one who takes too long to get over things, and will make my life unhappy.
IDIOT... and its quite hilarious. listening to him... his excuses, even when he tries to own up to his mistakes... and he actually believes his own bullshit... and in the past i would have too... and even when i moved out the in the first place, i distantly hoped, that he would prove himself different... but i knew better.
and i think at this point, i like seeing a grown man cry like a baby. its quite amusing.
so experiment successful, i am strong enough...
Im dropping of the stupid car... i dont want anything to do with him, it is my only tie to him. who cares whether he can make the payment or not now since his money is running out.... i dont care. figure it out, shoulda thought about it.
I smiled at him, and told him i was done, i said you can say all the crazy stories about me that you wish, you can call me any name you want, you can blame me for your failures, and your future mistakes... anything that makes you feel better, but I am just a memory now
UndercoverAngel
Amen and good for you!! It is a good feeling we we finally recognize it all for what it really is....bullshit! I am happy to know I am not the only one that gets amusement out of my ex's desperation or well played temper tantrums. I just have to keep remembering that mess and not the delusions he originally set forth. Kudos to you!! Hearing others staying strong helps me do the same :-)
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