Super anxiety right now. Its worse when they are nice... Admit to their mistakes. He even admitted to being selfish. There is always,a "but" though. He says i treated him bad as well... That im moody and snappy.

He says he accepts my decision. Is all calm and ok. Says he realized alot of things during his training. Says he can make it all up to me but im the one choosing to walk away. And he understands that im at a breaking point. He brings up all the plans we had to create security.

Usually by this point im ok... It doesnt bother me. But not this time. I feel like mush... Like im too tired to stand. I keep telling myself over and over again why im leaving... Its just so much worse when tgey act this way. I almost want him to yell at me... At least that would help validate my reasons for leaving. I just dont know why im feeling so wrong about it. Like i blew it outta porportion. Like i made it up. Like im making a mistake. Like sometimes couples go through hard times and im ditching out... Keep my head straight ladies...