Women who Love too Much Community Group

WHEN BEING IN LOVE, MEANS BEING IN PAIN... This group is to help women through the journey of realizing they can love themselves. To help realize that they are capable of having a happy, healthy, whole relationship and break the cycle of abuse and heartache from loving emotionally unavailable men.

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Missmom75 10/15/2012

I txtd my ex.
I'm so freaken stupid, I wanna punch myself in the face.
It was actually legit in that I was trying to hunt down a place we had been to and couldn't remember the name, but it was totally an excuse to make contact. feeling rejected by this other guy I almost got involved with, I'm in a very vulnerable place. So I did it. And now I feel disgusting, defeated, liek a total loser. especially that his response was one worded and to teh point. I don't know what the hell I was hoping for. Maybe a 'hi! how are you? long time no hear'
nothing.
I hate myself.

deleted_user 10/15/2012

Don't hate yourself please. I also broke the no contact and I will probably break it again.
I'm sorry you feel like this.
A big hug.

Missmom75 10/15/2012

I can't break it again. I can't stand teh thought of making myself feel so low. I don't know why I did it in teh first place.
I feel so weak.

deleted_user 10/15/2012

oh missmom..please dont feel bad. for the last week i have been like a crazy person trying to stop myself from texting. i know how you feel, the vulnerability...its a motherf@#$%!

you are a tough cookie, i am just worried he may text you soon...

Missmom75 10/15/2012

so am I. I know what he's thinking. It makes me sick.

deleted_user 10/15/2012

I believe you are strong enough to make it through Missmom. Don't be hard on yourself. It will be ok.

Missmom75 10/15/2012

Thank you ladies. I feel like a total trainwreck today.
It doesn't help that I'm hungover. so gross.

deleted_user 10/15/2012

I have just recently started drinking which scares me a bit because I never had alcohol issues.... sigh.
Stay strong Missmom.

Missmom75 10/15/2012

I rarily drink. Only when I go out with my gf's which is literally twice a month. I guess that's why I'm feeling so pathetic...

deleted_user 10/15/2012

I started drinking by myself... wine.
I don't like it but it gives me that sort of "I don't care attitude" -.-

swelsha 10/16/2012

Lighten up on yourself missmom. It's not like youre an ax-murderer. It is very difficult to let go when we have feelings for someone. One of the reasons i can say i'm done smoking is the way it feels after I binge. Now you have even more reason to stay away from him. You'll get through this. (BIGHUG)

Missmom75 10/16/2012

Thank you Swelsha.
I do feel better today. Less frantic and much stronger.
Last night I picked up my journals again, that helped.
I almost feel like it had to happen. Creo also mentionned how it was meant to happen, as a metaphoric last nail in the coffin.
I'm worried I opened up the lines of communication somehow though, which is what I originally set out to do in that split second of madness yesterday. Maybe not. Maybe he's with someone, who knows. I'm so glad we have ZERO ties and I don't ever have to know anything about him.

speedy1033 10/16/2012

Swelsha is right...so what...Just dont anymore...There are times when I have dont that just to get a rise out of him...I tried manipulating him...But just for revenge..It works on him too...but not like it does me...We have big hearts..they do not..Dont waste another min worrying about that text...who cares...just learn from it...Life is all about learning from mistakes and growing as people...Hey at least you didnt do like I did and ask him to take you on a date and get turned down...Now thatsbad...Like I said, so what..You will get over it..promise.

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