Women who Love too Much Community Group
WHEN BEING IN LOVE, MEANS BEING IN PAIN... This group is to help women through the journey of realizing they can love themselves. To help realize that they are capable of having a happy, healthy, whole relationship and break the cycle of abuse and heartache from loving emotionally unavailable men.
I don't get it . I go through these spells where I feel completely worthless. I feel like a horrible mom, daughter, friend, girlfriend, ex-wife,employee, etc. I just want to stay in bed and cry. I have screwed up my life so bad. 40, single, and struggling to make ends meet. When I am in these funks I over analyze everything and start myself spinning into a depression. I think I am a bad mom because I get frustrated at my daughter's bratty behaviors and raise my voice at her or feel like i need a break from her. I feel like I have spoiled her into being a brat and I am desperately trying to fix it. I feel like a bad daughter because I don't call or visit my mom enough, I feel like a bad friend because I don't contact my friends enough and when I do the conversation ends up turning to my life. I feel like a bad girlfriend because I am getting these feelings that he is pulling away from me and I try to figure out what I am doing wrong for that to happen. Why am I not good enough for this one too? I feel like a bad ex-wife because I try to maintain control where I shouldn't. I feel like a bad employee because I am letting my over analyzing affect my work performance. Maybe its the crappy weather and maybe it is just me - either way I hate feeling this way.
Thank you all for listening.
Thank you all for listening.
"whever you are be all there" jim elliot.
I feel utterly worthless all too much of the time. Where does that get us? It is OK to have a pity-party... for a short while. Then we have to have the self-respect and literal *courage* to turn that emotion around.
Tell me something that you love about yourself? That you do well? That you are proud of? I know there is something. Have courage. Do you know the etymology of the word "courage?" In French, it is derived from two words:
Le coeur = the heart.
L'age = maturity
Consider that... maturity of the heart. xo~p
One thing that has helped me in recovery is something I read in my rape recovery book. It said that when we think of ourselves, we must in the end focus on facts and not feelings. Even if you feel worthless and horrible, it doesn't mean you are. Feelings are not facts. We all have things we don't like about ourselves, but we are never all bad. All people are shades of grey, not black and white. And the things we don't like we can always try to slowly change. I have felt very worthless at times in my life as well...and reading that helped me at least, hopefully it can give you some light...