Women who Love too Much Community Group
WHEN BEING IN LOVE, MEANS BEING IN PAIN... This group is to help women through the journey of realizing they can love themselves. To help realize that they are capable of having a happy, healthy, whole relationship and break the cycle of abuse and heartache from loving emotionally unavailable men.
So I went and bought a new car yesterday! You would think that I would be happy. But no one else seems to be happy for me is the problem. Why do I always need recognition? The hubby complained that we do not have the money and how disappointed he is. This is nothing new. Why do I even bother with him?
The BF is just stunned. I don't think he has ever had a new car.
And then the clencher...dear mom and dad. When I told my dad he completely ignored me. Just kept talking about what he was doing. Then he turned the phone over to my mother. She was a little excited but not really. You see I was suppose to go to see my grandma who was turning 97 yesterday, but I decided not to go because I was ill with the flu and did not want her to catch it. After sitting around the house for 3 days I wanted to get out, so I took my son shopping. We went to test drive cars and well you know the rest. My old car was breaking down and I needed a more reliable one.
My question is why do I defend myself about buying the car???? Why do I feel bad about it??? I allow these people to STILL control my feelings. Why can't I tell myself that I deserve the car?
Anyway mom wanted to know what I was doing for thanksgiving!! UGGGG. I guess it's the holidays approaching again that has me down. I used to love the holidays, but now I dread them. Not knowing if I take the BF up to mom and dads, if they will be nice or not?? Wondering what hubby will be doing and if he will be all by himself??(which is what he keeps saying is mostly what he likes.) What I would really like to do is hang out at my meeting with those less fortunate and enjoy the food and comrodery. But this would be to ignore my family.
I am worrying way too much again about how others are going to feel. I am trying to please everyone but me. I still have this awful cold and just want to crawl under a rock and hibernate till the holidays are over. Sad, very sad because I really really love the holidays.
The BF is just stunned. I don't think he has ever had a new car.
And then the clencher...dear mom and dad. When I told my dad he completely ignored me. Just kept talking about what he was doing. Then he turned the phone over to my mother. She was a little excited but not really. You see I was suppose to go to see my grandma who was turning 97 yesterday, but I decided not to go because I was ill with the flu and did not want her to catch it. After sitting around the house for 3 days I wanted to get out, so I took my son shopping. We went to test drive cars and well you know the rest. My old car was breaking down and I needed a more reliable one.
My question is why do I defend myself about buying the car???? Why do I feel bad about it??? I allow these people to STILL control my feelings. Why can't I tell myself that I deserve the car?
Anyway mom wanted to know what I was doing for thanksgiving!! UGGGG. I guess it's the holidays approaching again that has me down. I used to love the holidays, but now I dread them. Not knowing if I take the BF up to mom and dads, if they will be nice or not?? Wondering what hubby will be doing and if he will be all by himself??(which is what he keeps saying is mostly what he likes.) What I would really like to do is hang out at my meeting with those less fortunate and enjoy the food and comrodery. But this would be to ignore my family.
I am worrying way too much again about how others are going to feel. I am trying to please everyone but me. I still have this awful cold and just want to crawl under a rock and hibernate till the holidays are over. Sad, very sad because I really really love the holidays.
So happy for you. Congrats for the new car. Go for a long drive with your favourite music playing. You bought this car for yourself and you should be happy about it. When people around us show disinterest we do feel bad.....it is not like we are asking for some validation...it is generally that we feel bad. Just a matter of time...let it pass. Some days have to be more challenging than others. Thee are days when we feel down. In those days we need to be extra kind to ourselves. And all of us need friends to help us when we are down. Even Superman needed Lois Lane :))) So hey..when there is a need to share something...know that we are there. Take care.