So here is where I am at : I realize that in all my relationships I only connect on a surface level. I have wondered why I don't have very many true friends and why my love relationships were never that satisfying. Well I have discovered that you get what you give. And that you attract and go after people who FIT per say into what you are comfortable with. So what I have gotten are surface level attachments. Then I become terribly sad and depressed when my relationships don't fulfill me. Well it's not them it's me.

Growing up my mother and father never shared their feelings with us kids. My brother left the house at an early age and my sister was handicapped. So I never learned to attach deeply.

I keep myself busy with life by working and playing a lot and am learning to love and care about myself a lot more these days. But my question is "how do you connect deeply with certain people?"

I am thinking that it is sharing your inner most thoughts. Whether this be your dreams and aspirations or your dark fears. I still have a lot of fear sharing from my heart as I fear rejection or not so much being made fun of, but being ignored and having those thoughts feel meaningless to someone else. Then it makes me feel bad. Like I am not important and why did I share that stuff anyway?

But I am reading and learning that these deep connections are what truly brings us love and happiness. They fulfill us. They fill up our soul. Caring about others and connecting. I care a lot about other people, and I know I have a very kind and giving heart, but somehow I don't connect. Somehow I always feel alone. I have just begun to connect with God. That is helping me immensly. I really don't feel so alone anymore, except when it comes to people. With myself I becoming good with being with me. But now it's time to reach out and explore these deeper connections that I know will change my life.

What are your thoughts or suggestions on this? How do you do this?