Women who Love too Much Community Group
WHEN BEING IN LOVE, MEANS BEING IN PAIN... This group is to help women through the journey of realizing they can love themselves. To help realize that they are capable of having a happy, healthy, whole relationship and break the cycle of abuse and heartache from loving emotionally unavailable men.
My son's father is in a league of his own.
I'm completely over him, sometimes I can't even believe it, he was a monkey on my back for 4 years!
He is the polar opposite of M. The only thing they have in common is that they are very jealous and possessive.
My son's father is HIGHLY emotional and dramatic. And Abusive, and manipulative and just plain messed up.
Which is why when I met M, I thought I had hit the jackpot. Here's this guy who is calm and non-dramatic, non-confrontational...he was a dream! Oh boy lol! How quickly he turned into a nightmare!
Don't get me wrong, i woudl take M over R (my son's father), any day! R made my life a living hell. The verbal abuse and manipulation was the worst of its kind. He could tell me he loved and adored me one minute and the very next he never EVER loved me and I was the most horrible person on the planet. What extremes between he and M. M is constantly on a plain..that could get extremely painful too.While I wished I was invisible to R sometimes, because I couldn't handle the mindf*ck, I also wished M would acknowledge me, because I couldn't handle the mindf*ck.
The thing about R that drove me to the brink wasn't the blow to my left side that punctured my eardrum. It was the hundred times a day 'im not gonna talk to you now and carry on with a smug look on my face, I'm gonna let you think you did something terribly wrong although you didn't, just because I can and because I'm crazy like that' I near lost my mind. Thsi was a daily occurence. I fell for it every time. When I was finally over him, it was like I exhaled 4 years worth of toxic air.
Wow. Am I ever fckd up. lol
I'm completely over him, sometimes I can't even believe it, he was a monkey on my back for 4 years!
He is the polar opposite of M. The only thing they have in common is that they are very jealous and possessive.
My son's father is HIGHLY emotional and dramatic. And Abusive, and manipulative and just plain messed up.
Which is why when I met M, I thought I had hit the jackpot. Here's this guy who is calm and non-dramatic, non-confrontational...he was a dream! Oh boy lol! How quickly he turned into a nightmare!
Don't get me wrong, i woudl take M over R (my son's father), any day! R made my life a living hell. The verbal abuse and manipulation was the worst of its kind. He could tell me he loved and adored me one minute and the very next he never EVER loved me and I was the most horrible person on the planet. What extremes between he and M. M is constantly on a plain..that could get extremely painful too.While I wished I was invisible to R sometimes, because I couldn't handle the mindf*ck, I also wished M would acknowledge me, because I couldn't handle the mindf*ck.
The thing about R that drove me to the brink wasn't the blow to my left side that punctured my eardrum. It was the hundred times a day 'im not gonna talk to you now and carry on with a smug look on my face, I'm gonna let you think you did something terribly wrong although you didn't, just because I can and because I'm crazy like that' I near lost my mind. Thsi was a daily occurence. I fell for it every time. When I was finally over him, it was like I exhaled 4 years worth of toxic air.
Wow. Am I ever fckd up. lol
I hate that!
Like we are supposed to be able to read their insane minds!
I was damned if I did, or damned if I didn't.
Always pinned between a rock and a hard place with him.
My X was really good at mindf*cking me. It was his full time hobby.
I am SOOOO glad to be away from him, unfortunately my son is still being held hostage by the mindf*cker.
Sometimes no other word can fully express whats inside!!!!!!
Missmom, you have been through a lot.
Thanks for sharing all this stuff so openly.
But My experiences don't define me.
I'm generally a happy person and VERY VERY lucky to have my son and all the belessings in the world.