Well, it's almost three months since I last saw him and spoke to him, when he stormed out giving me a hail of verbal abuse. If people remember I had foolishly let him come back and stay after his new woman had thrown him out following only one incident of verbal abuse to her. He'd originally left my house just before Christmas saying he was going to lodge with this new female friend. It turned out of course, that this was a lie and he had, in fact, been visiting her for sex for weeks before he moved there - he'd only met her in October. I know now he was only waiting to find somewhere else to go before he would leave me. Then, after she'd thrown him out she befriended me on Facebook and asked lots of questions about him. He then read my facebook messages when I was out one evening and he went ballistic at me, not at her, and blamed me for everything wrong in his life (which he'd done many times before when we were together, particularly when drunk) and that's when he left, first to his mum's and then pretending to be homeless and sleeping in a tent, which made lots of people feel sorry for him. He had, however, only camped for two days and his woman had taken him back. I've mentioned here many times all the horrible abusive, threatening texts and calls I received from him. I shared these with her,thinking she was still friends with me and adamant not to take him back and because some of the messages were also really abusive towards her. I hadn't realised she was also complicit in his lies. It was then she started telling me to cut the cords with him and do a visualisation for this. What a fool they both must have thought I was.

Anyway, a few weeks later he moved a few hundred miles away to stay with his best friend, but him and his woman are still supposedly madly in love, she's the love of his life and the other day they were excited about going on holiday together. He's texted me a few times but I've not replied. And, despite being desperate to contact him so many times over the weeks, as I've recorded here, I've managed to maintain No Contact. It's getting easier - honestly. I miss him every day. I miss coming home from work to an empty house and having no one to go through my day with or eat with. There are so many things I want to talk to him about. But I've not and each day I'm getting stronger and I'm missing him less. I know I'm a long way to being over him and an even longer way from being cured of my codependency issues, but I am getting there. So if I can do it, any of you can. Stick in there you lovely women. We'll all get there. Much love to you all.