My N lives on my Grams property and I take care of my Grandmother a few days a week. I've been good and staying distant, trying to avoid contact, texting hello, and not making any efforts. I guess she's notice and decided to reach out (of course). I tried to be brief in my reply but, she asked for a hug (Friday) and of course she's never asked for one and I was more than willing. Then she offers to take me to dinner and or a movie today. Instead Friday she comes over I buy food to make and I rent a movie. She ends up spending the night nothing happens. She doesn't ask she just assumes she can. I wake up and I make breakfast, my back is totally out but, I still do it! So, we eat breakfast in bed. My uncle calls and says my Grams needs food so, I go shopping while she waits. I buy food and make a picnic in bed. I have plans but I throw them to the wasteside. I ask her if she's going to be around for dinner she says she doesn't know. My mind thinks she will unless something better comes up. We'll she says at 530 I gotta meet my Mom to go see Bridesmaids but, she says I'm thinking I'll be back. So, of course I wait & wait and at 10:00 I text are you coming back? She says prob. not. I'm at my sisters. I text her back "No worries, I'm leaving have a good nite"...I was doing so, good but now I'm back to feeling horrible. Oh, while she was here she said "See I can be away and come back and it's just like normal. What is normal? She comes when she wants? Takes everyone else out but me...feels like I don't need anything. She thinks I'm going to love her forever. Am I? I don't want to love her anymore. It feels better just typing (I thought I'd go to bed but, I'm glad I checked in)...Thanks!