Gosh I miss my mom today She passeed away in 95. I am going thru a lot of problems but have no one to talk to. I really hate my life. Here I am that Im 55yrs old and I am stuck in a life I hate. I cant leave because I have no where to go. I am a good person with a big heart. I had to disociate from my family cuz they are like those Housewives of Major Dramas. Just thinking of them make me shakes. I cant get legal separation because the state doesnt reconize it I cant afford to get a divorce. I cant get SSDI. I cant even go to shelter especially with my health issue. I cant go to Blind Service because six years ago my counselor breach the confindentiallty by talking to my sister. And now she is working for them. My health is getting worse. I cant get Ins because of my PKD kidney diesease. Once they hear PKD I am not quality for ins. With the ecocony now they are very long waiting list for homeless. Some places have night time shelter in a very bad neighborhood. I cant risk that with my blindness and plus I am on two very strong pain meds. Ive been trying so hard to find the causes of my pelvis pains but it seems like I take one step forward then two step backward. Now I am scare because the pain had gotten worse to the point that I cant sit too long and my belly is swellin up like im pregant. I dont have any more money for medica treatments to find the cause of my abdonal pain. My next step was to get laprocopy but have no insurace for it ER only can do so much but to send me to dr. I already had a stroke and had my appendix taken out this past year. plus been in er few times Once I broke down thinkng I was causing added pain but caught a bad intestional virus (there were an outbreak of it). Im so lost to what to do next. that is why i wish my mom was here I know she is in spirit but having hard time with strengh in beleiving. Sorry for putting a damper today